Gain Some, Lose Some

Ok, so I weighed myself earlier today, and I am back at 328. No big deal, because I have lost inches for those jeans to fit. As long as I am losing something, I am happy! Just not up top, I want to save what little I have there! ;) I have kept myself so busy today that I have barely ate, and I do not condone that. I still have some fine tuning to do to my diet, it is definately still a work in progress! I can honestly say those numbers do not bother me at all. I lost 8 pounds my first week, so I know I can do it again. And I will do it again. I have not come this far to just throw in my proverbial towel. That would be such a sad waste of what I have done so far.

It was such a nice day today, so after I weighed myself, we went to the store to get grocieries I had forgotten to get yesterday, (Old age.=D) and went to the park and ate a sandwich from some of the newly bought grocieries. It was so peaceful and a great way for my hubby and I to just sit and chew the fat. hehe. We had a good time, and anyone with kids know adult alone time is sparse with little ones running around. Kids at school is a great time to reconnect with myself and really focus on my journey ahead.

I have had a fairly rocky start with this diet, but this time, it is different. I want to achieve this goal more than anything.....I can just taste it! I'm HUNGRY!!!! HUNGRY FOR SUCCESS! If you haven't listened to any motivational speaking by Les Brown, I suggest you do. Other than the obvious humorous irony with his speaking to weight loss, he is such a great motivator.

With all that said, here is the.....

Thought of the Day
"The harder the conflict, the more glorious the triumph."

Today Was A Good Day

Today I dressed myself up real nice and put on makeup. It's so amazing how little things like this makes me feel so good. I wore some old jeans and one thing caught my eye that made me feel really good. I didn't have to suck my fat rolls in! It was a good fit, and I haven't wore jeans in a long time. I have been feeling good all day, one of those days you just wake up and you know this day will be going your way. It makes me want to see what I weigh now, which I will find out tomorrow. Even if I have gained some or all back, I fit those jeans! It makes me want to push that much harder and makes me feel so good about myself. That is why I wanted to dress up a bit, I looked how I felt inside.

My husband ended up taking us out to eat (Chinese haha) to celebrate a milestone in my journey. I savored every bite of my meal, it tasted like perfection! I didn't overeat, although I did have dessert. I do not feel a bit bad about it either. As long as I don't overdo it, its all good to me! I wish all days felt as good as this! I am definately looking more forward to reaching my goal, or maybe even surpassing it.

I have bought a new Crystal Light flavor.....Strawberry Banana with Hunger Satisfaction. Hopefully that can help me fight the mind battle with the foods that I crave: the foods that may ultimately harm or kill me. And overeating any type of food. I definately need all the help I can get!

With all this said, here is the.....

Thought of the Day
"A stumble may prevent a fall"
-English Proverb

My Mind is a Battlefield

It's been awhile since I have blogged, I have been so busy! I will start out by saying I have cheated a bit in my diet. I am still eating healthy, but I have steered to those addicting Starbucks' Caramel Frapps! I have also been eating more in volume. I am disappointed in myself, but I am not going to cry about it. Nuh-uh, not me. I am getting back on track and just trying to move on.

I have not weighed myself lately because I was really swollen the last couple weeks, and of course I gained water weight. I will spare the details for any male readers...... ;) I will weigh myself next week to see what damage I have done and need to repair.

Back to those Frapps, I am now drinking the Light Caramel ones. They have alot less calories and fat and I do not feel guilty drinking one. I get the Venti size, and here is the breakdown comparison of the Original and Light:

ORIGINAL VENTI W/ WHIPPED CREAM

Calories 500
Fat 16g.
Sat. Fat 10g.
Cholesterol 60mg.

LIGHT

Calories 220
Fat 1.5g.
Sat. Fat 0g.
Cholesterol <5mg.

HUGE difference, right? It is so scary to realize what you consume when eating out. You don't realize what you consume while eating out, and possibly not even care. I hate not to eat out because that is what we do as a family. It's fun! There are not healthy restaurants around here, and I would love to start up one to cater to people like me who love to eat out, but are watching what they eat. I have been eating quite a bit of Subway lately, because it is the best choice around. I would love to see them branch out into healthy dining.....with meals and healthy desserts.


I want to thank those who have encouraged me on Facebook, it means alot to me. I haven't given up, just disappointed in myself for letting myself slip because of stress. I was swollen, my husband AND daughter was sick, it was wearing me down. I have decided I will incorporate counseling to help me with my journey. I need help to fight my cravings, big appetite, and emotional eating.

I have battled so much in my life alone, why can't I battle this?????? It is much harder than it looks, but it can be done. And, I can do it! I have WILL OF STEEL.

With all this said, I shall give you the.....

Thought of the Day

"The battle of the mind is the toughest battle to win."