Ok, so I weighed myself earlier today, and I am back at 328. No big deal, because I have lost inches for those jeans to fit. As long as I am losing something, I am happy! Just not up top, I want to save what little I have there! ;) I have kept myself so busy today that I have barely ate, and I do not condone that. I still have some fine tuning to do to my diet, it is definately still a work in progress! I can honestly say those numbers do not bother me at all. I lost 8 pounds my first week, so I know I can do it again. And I will do it again. I have not come this far to just throw in my proverbial towel. That would be such a sad waste of what I have done so far.
It was such a nice day today, so after I weighed myself, we went to the store to get grocieries I had forgotten to get yesterday, (Old age.=D) and went to the park and ate a sandwich from some of the newly bought grocieries. It was so peaceful and a great way for my hubby and I to just sit and chew the fat. hehe. We had a good time, and anyone with kids know adult alone time is sparse with little ones running around. Kids at school is a great time to reconnect with myself and really focus on my journey ahead.
I have had a fairly rocky start with this diet, but this time, it is different. I want to achieve this goal more than anything.....I can just taste it! I'm HUNGRY!!!! HUNGRY FOR SUCCESS! If you haven't listened to any motivational speaking by Les Brown, I suggest you do. Other than the obvious humorous irony with his speaking to weight loss, he is such a great motivator.
With all that said, here is the.....
Thought of the Day
"The harder the conflict, the more glorious the triumph."
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Monday, March 15, 2010
Today Was A Good Day
Today I dressed myself up real nice and put on makeup. It's so amazing how little things like this makes me feel so good. I wore some old jeans and one thing caught my eye that made me feel really good. I didn't have to suck my fat rolls in! It was a good fit, and I haven't wore jeans in a long time. I have been feeling good all day, one of those days you just wake up and you know this day will be going your way. It makes me want to see what I weigh now, which I will find out tomorrow. Even if I have gained some or all back, I fit those jeans! It makes me want to push that much harder and makes me feel so good about myself. That is why I wanted to dress up a bit, I looked how I felt inside.
My husband ended up taking us out to eat (Chinese haha) to celebrate a milestone in my journey. I savored every bite of my meal, it tasted like perfection! I didn't overeat, although I did have dessert. I do not feel a bit bad about it either. As long as I don't overdo it, its all good to me! I wish all days felt as good as this! I am definately looking more forward to reaching my goal, or maybe even surpassing it.
I have bought a new Crystal Light flavor.....Strawberry Banana with Hunger Satisfaction. Hopefully that can help me fight the mind battle with the foods that I crave: the foods that may ultimately harm or kill me. And overeating any type of food. I definately need all the help I can get!
With all this said, here is the.....
Thought of the Day
"A stumble may prevent a fall"
-English Proverb
My husband ended up taking us out to eat (Chinese haha) to celebrate a milestone in my journey. I savored every bite of my meal, it tasted like perfection! I didn't overeat, although I did have dessert. I do not feel a bit bad about it either. As long as I don't overdo it, its all good to me! I wish all days felt as good as this! I am definately looking more forward to reaching my goal, or maybe even surpassing it.
I have bought a new Crystal Light flavor.....Strawberry Banana with Hunger Satisfaction. Hopefully that can help me fight the mind battle with the foods that I crave: the foods that may ultimately harm or kill me. And overeating any type of food. I definately need all the help I can get!
With all this said, here is the.....
Thought of the Day
"A stumble may prevent a fall"
-English Proverb
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Diverting Attention
I have found something that diverts my thoughts of cravings, and wanting to constantly eat- painting! I love getting my creative juices flowing! Here is a picture I made of one of my bunnies, Marbles:
He's a cutie, isn't he? He is such a sweetheart! That position is called "loafing" because bunnies tuck their paws under their bodies making them resemble a loaf of bread, or meatloaf.....with ears lol. I made a picture of our first rabbit Thumper about a year ago, so I had to make one of him. My babies inspire me, and that's what I paint. Thumper (a.k.a. Queen) is about 3 years old, and Marbles will be 1 next month.
It has worked so far to keep me occupied, as well into diving into my Spring cleaning. It is nice to have some kind of orginazation again, we moved in this house a few months ago and the boxes have sat in the closet since then. I still have the walls, deep freezer and tub to scrub, the inside of the couches vaccumed, the couch cleaned and all windows cleaned. Then, I should be done. I listen to music while I clean because it gives me a boost of energy and makes it fun.
I will have to start kicking myself to keep a journal, it makes things much more realistic of what you are consuming. It helps eating the right way easier if you look down at a piece of paper and ask yourself, "Do I really eat this much or this way?" The paper will tell you the truth if you write down the truth. And the truth is for me: I am an emotional eater. I need to eat for nutrition, not comfort. Eat for health, not to make me unhealthy.
I was looking at some old Physician records for me, and at that time, (2006-2007) I complained alot about back and knee pain. The Doctor always wrote on every visit "OBESE" in big capital letters. I didn't like seeing that. I don't want to be known as that any more. I don't want obesity to be the thing people look at me for. I don't want to be a toothpick (although with my large bone frame will never happen!) I just want to look healthy and be in a healthy weight range. Being underweight is the same extreme as being overweight or obese.
With all this said, it is time for the.....
Thought of the Day
"You can't steal second base with your foot still on first base."
He's a cutie, isn't he? He is such a sweetheart! That position is called "loafing" because bunnies tuck their paws under their bodies making them resemble a loaf of bread, or meatloaf.....with ears lol. I made a picture of our first rabbit Thumper about a year ago, so I had to make one of him. My babies inspire me, and that's what I paint. Thumper (a.k.a. Queen) is about 3 years old, and Marbles will be 1 next month.
It has worked so far to keep me occupied, as well into diving into my Spring cleaning. It is nice to have some kind of orginazation again, we moved in this house a few months ago and the boxes have sat in the closet since then. I still have the walls, deep freezer and tub to scrub, the inside of the couches vaccumed, the couch cleaned and all windows cleaned. Then, I should be done. I listen to music while I clean because it gives me a boost of energy and makes it fun.
I will have to start kicking myself to keep a journal, it makes things much more realistic of what you are consuming. It helps eating the right way easier if you look down at a piece of paper and ask yourself, "Do I really eat this much or this way?" The paper will tell you the truth if you write down the truth. And the truth is for me: I am an emotional eater. I need to eat for nutrition, not comfort. Eat for health, not to make me unhealthy.
I was looking at some old Physician records for me, and at that time, (2006-2007) I complained alot about back and knee pain. The Doctor always wrote on every visit "OBESE" in big capital letters. I didn't like seeing that. I don't want to be known as that any more. I don't want obesity to be the thing people look at me for. I don't want to be a toothpick (although with my large bone frame will never happen!) I just want to look healthy and be in a healthy weight range. Being underweight is the same extreme as being overweight or obese.
With all this said, it is time for the.....
Thought of the Day
"You can't steal second base with your foot still on first base."
Friday, March 12, 2010
My Mind is a Battlefield
It's been awhile since I have blogged, I have been so busy! I will start out by saying I have cheated a bit in my diet. I am still eating healthy, but I have steered to those addicting Starbucks' Caramel Frapps! I have also been eating more in volume. I am disappointed in myself, but I am not going to cry about it. Nuh-uh, not me. I am getting back on track and just trying to move on.
I have not weighed myself lately because I was really swollen the last couple weeks, and of course I gained water weight. I will spare the details for any male readers...... ;) I will weigh myself next week to see what damage I have done and need to repair.
Back to those Frapps, I am now drinking the Light Caramel ones. They have alot less calories and fat and I do not feel guilty drinking one. I get the Venti size, and here is the breakdown comparison of the Original and Light:
ORIGINAL VENTI W/ WHIPPED CREAM
Calories 500
Fat 16g.
Sat. Fat 10g.
Cholesterol 60mg.
LIGHT
Calories 220
Fat 1.5g.
Sat. Fat 0g.
Cholesterol <5mg.
HUGE difference, right? It is so scary to realize what you consume when eating out. You don't realize what you consume while eating out, and possibly not even care. I hate not to eat out because that is what we do as a family. It's fun! There are not healthy restaurants around here, and I would love to start up one to cater to people like me who love to eat out, but are watching what they eat. I have been eating quite a bit of Subway lately, because it is the best choice around. I would love to see them branch out into healthy dining.....with meals and healthy desserts.
I want to thank those who have encouraged me on Facebook, it means alot to me. I haven't given up, just disappointed in myself for letting myself slip because of stress. I was swollen, my husband AND daughter was sick, it was wearing me down. I have decided I will incorporate counseling to help me with my journey. I need help to fight my cravings, big appetite, and emotional eating.
I have battled so much in my life alone, why can't I battle this?????? It is much harder than it looks, but it can be done. And, I can do it! I have WILL OF STEEL.
With all this said, I shall give you the.....
Thought of the Day
"The battle of the mind is the toughest battle to win."
I have not weighed myself lately because I was really swollen the last couple weeks, and of course I gained water weight. I will spare the details for any male readers...... ;) I will weigh myself next week to see what damage I have done and need to repair.
Back to those Frapps, I am now drinking the Light Caramel ones. They have alot less calories and fat and I do not feel guilty drinking one. I get the Venti size, and here is the breakdown comparison of the Original and Light:
ORIGINAL VENTI W/ WHIPPED CREAM
Calories 500
Fat 16g.
Sat. Fat 10g.
Cholesterol 60mg.
LIGHT
Calories 220
Fat 1.5g.
Sat. Fat 0g.
Cholesterol <5mg.
HUGE difference, right? It is so scary to realize what you consume when eating out. You don't realize what you consume while eating out, and possibly not even care. I hate not to eat out because that is what we do as a family. It's fun! There are not healthy restaurants around here, and I would love to start up one to cater to people like me who love to eat out, but are watching what they eat. I have been eating quite a bit of Subway lately, because it is the best choice around. I would love to see them branch out into healthy dining.....with meals and healthy desserts.
I want to thank those who have encouraged me on Facebook, it means alot to me. I haven't given up, just disappointed in myself for letting myself slip because of stress. I was swollen, my husband AND daughter was sick, it was wearing me down. I have decided I will incorporate counseling to help me with my journey. I need help to fight my cravings, big appetite, and emotional eating.
I have battled so much in my life alone, why can't I battle this?????? It is much harder than it looks, but it can be done. And, I can do it! I have WILL OF STEEL.
With all this said, I shall give you the.....
Thought of the Day
"The battle of the mind is the toughest battle to win."
Monday, March 1, 2010
Living Life Upside Down
Hello! My name is Amanda, and I am addicted to food. I have lived my life around my addiction to food, instead of actually living life. I have never been able to wear the latest clothing trends, never went to Prom, never did anything that normal people do. Being fat instantaneously makes you different, and I wanted to be normal, to fit in a niche. My only friend growing up was food. It never picked on me, laughed at me, or called me names. When I was sad, food cheered me up, when I had a bad day, food was there to comfort me. So, I delved deeper into my addiction, and thickened my armour of fat. All the hateful, spiteful things people did to me made me want to thicken the armour even more. I never had any friends until I hit High School, he was different like me.
I never lived life the way I should have, and I wish I would have been on a diet I was actually serious about before now. I am 30 years old, my life is most likely half over. I think back now to all of the possibilities that have eluded me, and it is all my fault. I still have problems socializing; when I talk to someone, I can't look them in the eyes. I don't want to see the possibility of someone criticizing me with their eyes. I do have ALOT more self esteem than I did, say, even 5 years ago, but that fat, shy, emotional kid still lives deep in my heart.
That is why I am choosing to change all of this and nothing can get in my way. It is time for me to live the life I deserve, which we all deserve. No more hiding in my armour of fat, it is time for it to go. It is not my true real friend. It is my enemy, attacking from all sides. A wolf in sheep's clothing. Losing weight by far surpasses just aesthetics, it is an emotional journey predominately. You have to be mentally ready and focused to keep your new lifestyle. I not only want to lose weight, I want to keep it off, and enjoy the rest of my life. I want to be able to keep up with my kids, take them to the park and participate, not sit and watch. I no longer want to sit and watch my whole life pass me by. That is why this blog is being written, this is no quick fix miracle diet. It is a journey to a better, healthier, smaller me. I'm worth it.
Ok, here are my menus for Saturday and yesterday since I am soooo far behind:
SATURDAY
SUNDAY
Thought of the Day
" What if we reach up and touch the ground, to find we're living life upside down?"
-Truth w/Russ Lee Living Life Upside Down on the More Than You'll Ever Imagine CD
I never lived life the way I should have, and I wish I would have been on a diet I was actually serious about before now. I am 30 years old, my life is most likely half over. I think back now to all of the possibilities that have eluded me, and it is all my fault. I still have problems socializing; when I talk to someone, I can't look them in the eyes. I don't want to see the possibility of someone criticizing me with their eyes. I do have ALOT more self esteem than I did, say, even 5 years ago, but that fat, shy, emotional kid still lives deep in my heart.
That is why I am choosing to change all of this and nothing can get in my way. It is time for me to live the life I deserve, which we all deserve. No more hiding in my armour of fat, it is time for it to go. It is not my true real friend. It is my enemy, attacking from all sides. A wolf in sheep's clothing. Losing weight by far surpasses just aesthetics, it is an emotional journey predominately. You have to be mentally ready and focused to keep your new lifestyle. I not only want to lose weight, I want to keep it off, and enjoy the rest of my life. I want to be able to keep up with my kids, take them to the park and participate, not sit and watch. I no longer want to sit and watch my whole life pass me by. That is why this blog is being written, this is no quick fix miracle diet. It is a journey to a better, healthier, smaller me. I'm worth it.
Ok, here are my menus for Saturday and yesterday since I am soooo far behind:
SATURDAY
SUNDAY
Thought of the Day
" What if we reach up and touch the ground, to find we're living life upside down?"
-Truth w/Russ Lee Living Life Upside Down on the More Than You'll Ever Imagine CD
Friday, February 26, 2010
AMEN, Fortune Cookie!
I finally had my Chinese!!!!! I made better choices than usual, and kept my unhealthy choices to a medium. I savored every bite, I was in Heaven! My husband picked the best treat! The snow is starting to pummel us again, so we had to drive out in that mess, but it was sooooo worth it. I still feel like crap, but not as bad. I did make a full food diary today, but I will try to get around to publishing it tomorrow.
I took some pictures of me today, similar to glamour, but I didn't have make-up on. If you do little things like that for yourself, it can make a world of difference for your self-esteem. After all your hard work, you deserve to be pampered! And it doesn't have to cost a fortune either! Last week, I gave myself a much needed pedi to get ready for spring, and it felt so good!
Anyways, to get to my title, my fortune cookie said, "The road to success is often a lonely one." AMEN! Even if you have a crowd of support, it is you who makes the choices to lead to success. I am the one making the choices, not anyone else. I am doing this for myself first; then my family, to be able to be active with my kids, and so on. If I succeed, its on me, if I fail, its on me. Although, failure is not an option for me. I am seeing this through all the way. For the rest of my life. I am a food addict, and addictions don't get broken just like that. It takes a lifetime of beating temptation from here on out. It's not easy, but good things never do come easy! With this said, don't get me wrong: I love every supportive message I have gotten, and it helps me push myself that much further. I am not saying I don't need anyone supporting me.....I do! I am simply saying your success lies in your choices, and your choices alone. Only you have the will to succeed, and it is support that helps you keep focus on your goal.
Ok, here is my menu:
MENU
I have been making a dish I will call CRAZY CRAISIN CHICKEN. Don't scoff, the craisins make the meal. Yum. Yum. It adds a sweet tang to it. Here is the recipe:
2 chicken breasts or 4 chicken thighs
1 1/2 cups of brown rice
1 16 oz. frozen bag of stir fry veggies, or just broccoli
2 cups Kraft Light Asian Toasted Sesame Dressing (Yes, I LOVE this stuff!!!!!)
1 oz. Craisins
kosher salt to taste
pepper to taste
Boil chicken until thoroughly cooked. Take chicken out of pan and put it in your freezer to cool. Add rice to the broth in the pan, and cook for about 4 minutes alone. Add frozen veggies, and boil until alot of the liquid is dissolved. Take the chicken out of the freezer, shred it, and add it to the pan. Add the salt and pepper to your taste. Keep boiling for another 5 minutes or so, however long it takes for the liquid to be nearly gone. Add the Dressing, and let stand for about 5 more minutes. Add the Craisins, and stir. Serve. Enjoy! =)
This makes ALOT of food! I have started to put 1 1/2 cup portions in my Healthy Choice Steamers bowls and freezing them. I ate one bowl for lunch today.
With all this being said, 'tis time for the.....
Thought of the Day
Success doesn't find you, you have to earn it.
I took some pictures of me today, similar to glamour, but I didn't have make-up on. If you do little things like that for yourself, it can make a world of difference for your self-esteem. After all your hard work, you deserve to be pampered! And it doesn't have to cost a fortune either! Last week, I gave myself a much needed pedi to get ready for spring, and it felt so good!
Anyways, to get to my title, my fortune cookie said, "The road to success is often a lonely one." AMEN! Even if you have a crowd of support, it is you who makes the choices to lead to success. I am the one making the choices, not anyone else. I am doing this for myself first; then my family, to be able to be active with my kids, and so on. If I succeed, its on me, if I fail, its on me. Although, failure is not an option for me. I am seeing this through all the way. For the rest of my life. I am a food addict, and addictions don't get broken just like that. It takes a lifetime of beating temptation from here on out. It's not easy, but good things never do come easy! With this said, don't get me wrong: I love every supportive message I have gotten, and it helps me push myself that much further. I am not saying I don't need anyone supporting me.....I do! I am simply saying your success lies in your choices, and your choices alone. Only you have the will to succeed, and it is support that helps you keep focus on your goal.
Ok, here is my menu:
MENU
I have been making a dish I will call CRAZY CRAISIN CHICKEN. Don't scoff, the craisins make the meal. Yum. Yum. It adds a sweet tang to it. Here is the recipe:
2 chicken breasts or 4 chicken thighs
1 1/2 cups of brown rice
1 16 oz. frozen bag of stir fry veggies, or just broccoli
2 cups Kraft Light Asian Toasted Sesame Dressing (Yes, I LOVE this stuff!!!!!)
1 oz. Craisins
kosher salt to taste
pepper to taste
Boil chicken until thoroughly cooked. Take chicken out of pan and put it in your freezer to cool. Add rice to the broth in the pan, and cook for about 4 minutes alone. Add frozen veggies, and boil until alot of the liquid is dissolved. Take the chicken out of the freezer, shred it, and add it to the pan. Add the salt and pepper to your taste. Keep boiling for another 5 minutes or so, however long it takes for the liquid to be nearly gone. Add the Dressing, and let stand for about 5 more minutes. Add the Craisins, and stir. Serve. Enjoy! =)
This makes ALOT of food! I have started to put 1 1/2 cup portions in my Healthy Choice Steamers bowls and freezing them. I ate one bowl for lunch today.
With all this being said, 'tis time for the.....
Thought of the Day
Success doesn't find you, you have to earn it.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
I'm a LOSER, Baby!!!!!
I haven't been feeling well lately, so I haven't been keeping intricate food diaries. They are very essential in weight loss, so you see just exactly what you are eating! As I start to feel better I will actually start posting them. That also helps as well, knowing that other people see what I eat!
I am VERY pleased to announce I have lost 8 pounds! As I stated in another post, I thought I would be lucky to lose 2! As I continue to perfect my eating habits, I can't wait to see how much more I can lose, as well as being HEALTHY! When I went to go weigh myself, I was apprehensive to step on that scale. I was hoping I didn't gain! I had to have a Nurse help me weigh myself.....I hate those scales at the Doctor's office!!!!!! When she told me my weight I gasped as my husband patted me on the shoulder and told me I did a good job. Once outside I did a victory dance and whooping, and there was this older woman sitting in her car that was next to ours just glaring at me. I told my husband she was thinking I was a nut, but I didn't care. I was in Heaven.
That feeling didn't last long though, I called my Mom to tell her the good news, and she told me just not to let this be a fad that will only last a month or two. Gee, thanks for the support Mom.
Anyhow, not feeling good and trying to stay focused on a diet DO NOT go hand in hand! I have been a bit stressed with it, and made a few wrong choices. But, that's ok. I am just going to move on. They weren't too awful of choices, no overeating or oversplurging. But, it definately was not in my new plan, and it is something I don't plan to let myself do.
My oranges are starting to rot, so I have been chowing on those. At least the Vitamin C will come in handy right now. I had some oatmeal today and put a banana and Craisins in it, and sprinkled some Cinnamon sugar in it. It was pretty good. It was the instant kind of oatmeal mixed with water, so it had a gooey texture to it. Blecch! I am just so used to Southern-style cooking. Fried foods, gravy, all that good stuff that isn't good for you. And we did go to alot of buffets, and that's what I have to steer clear of, because that is the biggest invitation to overeat there is. I still want Chinese..... I could eat it everyday, all day long.
Since I don't have complete menus, I will skip to the.....
Thought of the Day
"Be the like a postage stamp, and stick to one thing until you get there."
- Josh Billings
I am VERY pleased to announce I have lost 8 pounds! As I stated in another post, I thought I would be lucky to lose 2! As I continue to perfect my eating habits, I can't wait to see how much more I can lose, as well as being HEALTHY! When I went to go weigh myself, I was apprehensive to step on that scale. I was hoping I didn't gain! I had to have a Nurse help me weigh myself.....I hate those scales at the Doctor's office!!!!!! When she told me my weight I gasped as my husband patted me on the shoulder and told me I did a good job. Once outside I did a victory dance and whooping, and there was this older woman sitting in her car that was next to ours just glaring at me. I told my husband she was thinking I was a nut, but I didn't care. I was in Heaven.
That feeling didn't last long though, I called my Mom to tell her the good news, and she told me just not to let this be a fad that will only last a month or two. Gee, thanks for the support Mom.
Anyhow, not feeling good and trying to stay focused on a diet DO NOT go hand in hand! I have been a bit stressed with it, and made a few wrong choices. But, that's ok. I am just going to move on. They weren't too awful of choices, no overeating or oversplurging. But, it definately was not in my new plan, and it is something I don't plan to let myself do.
My oranges are starting to rot, so I have been chowing on those. At least the Vitamin C will come in handy right now. I had some oatmeal today and put a banana and Craisins in it, and sprinkled some Cinnamon sugar in it. It was pretty good. It was the instant kind of oatmeal mixed with water, so it had a gooey texture to it. Blecch! I am just so used to Southern-style cooking. Fried foods, gravy, all that good stuff that isn't good for you. And we did go to alot of buffets, and that's what I have to steer clear of, because that is the biggest invitation to overeat there is. I still want Chinese..... I could eat it everyday, all day long.
Since I don't have complete menus, I will skip to the.....
Thought of the Day
"Be the like a postage stamp, and stick to one thing until you get there."
- Josh Billings
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Reality "Bites"
I morphed my diet today into multiple small meals today. I read the suggestion Stacie left on Facebook, and it is clearly the best choice for me. Thanks Stace! =) It works for me since I have the need to eat in quantity, and constantly. I ended up consuming less calories throughout the day, and feeling fuller. I read that doing this speeds your metabolism, helping burn the calories and fat you consume. YAY! I need all of the help I can get!
I ate mostly veggies, and my night snack was 2 sugar cookies and a rice treat with mini chocolate chips. I don't exactly want to say that is ok, and I am going to be decreasing my treat intake. But, on the other hand, my low caloric and fat intake for the day well makes up for the splurge. I am wanting to decrease my treat intake to maybe 2 times a week. One day at a time.....
I feel 100% better physically since starting my diet, and I figure I am consuming a third of what I was prior to my diet. Splurges included. There are still unhealthy foods in my household, but I have chosen to eat my healthy choices. I am on the right track! I can't wait until Wednesday, I have a weight check planned. I want to see if my new regime has paid off. I will be elated to have lost 2 pounds. That will be a great start!
Ok, here is my menu for today:
MENU
I want to personally thank everyone that has joined my Facebook page, and following me on Blogger. It means alot to me, thank you everyone! I will actually start posting my Thought of the Day on the page.
Now, 'tis time for the.....
Thought of the Day
"Those who can laugh without cause have either found the true meaning of happiness or have gone stark raving mad."
-Norm Papernick
I ate mostly veggies, and my night snack was 2 sugar cookies and a rice treat with mini chocolate chips. I don't exactly want to say that is ok, and I am going to be decreasing my treat intake. But, on the other hand, my low caloric and fat intake for the day well makes up for the splurge. I am wanting to decrease my treat intake to maybe 2 times a week. One day at a time.....
I feel 100% better physically since starting my diet, and I figure I am consuming a third of what I was prior to my diet. Splurges included. There are still unhealthy foods in my household, but I have chosen to eat my healthy choices. I am on the right track! I can't wait until Wednesday, I have a weight check planned. I want to see if my new regime has paid off. I will be elated to have lost 2 pounds. That will be a great start!
Ok, here is my menu for today:
MENU
I want to personally thank everyone that has joined my Facebook page, and following me on Blogger. It means alot to me, thank you everyone! I will actually start posting my Thought of the Day on the page.
Now, 'tis time for the.....
Thought of the Day
"Those who can laugh without cause have either found the true meaning of happiness or have gone stark raving mad."
-Norm Papernick
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Change is GOOD!
Sigh. Ugh. I had my husband take full length pictures of me today. Although I am very, very embarassed to do so, I will publish them. This has been the biggest I have ever been. I have always been big, but compared to then, I am downright huge now. I steadied around 250 in high school, gained weight being pregnant with my son, lost alot of weight afterwards, going down to 180, gained ALOT being pregnant with my daughter, and have been ballooning ever since. These pictures prove that I need to change my weight, and change it NOW!
I can't blame noone but myself. I chose to put myself in this position, and I choose to get out of it. And keep it off!
Ok, here is my menu for today:
No more splurging for me. Don't get me wrong either, I'm not depressed, discouraged, or any other negative dis words. I am not going to eat myself into a sugar coma. This is merely fueling my fire even more to lose weight. I am just so disgusted at myself for letting this happen. I just can't wait to show off my "after" picture. I'm gonna look damn good! Woo hoo! Now its time for the.....
Thought of the Day
Success isn't a result of spontaneous combustion. You have to set yourself on fire!
Friday, February 19, 2010
Splurge Day
Today was my Splurge Day! I didn't eat much during the day, so I decided today would be a good day for treating myself for my efforts. When I did my splurging, I am both surprised and elated that I didn't OVER-splurge! YAY ME! I actually like my new habits! I like being retrained from my old ways. It feels good. I feel good. I am looking forward to chewing away 172 pounds, nom nom nom you bad fat! That is what this blog is all about, not the usual idiomatic expression.
Today I thought about beauty. I am the epitome of "BBW", inside and out. In fact, all people have beauty, most don't know how or don't want to use it. I have come to accept myself as a Big, Beautiful Woman because that is who I am. Although, on the inside I am thin. That thin, or at least healthy woman will be coming soon. While I believe everyone is who they are, and should be proud of it, there comes a time when our downfalls must be dealt with. I have too many downfalls, but the major one is my weight. As I get older, it is affecting my body in a way that unsettles me.
I am lucky to not have high blood pressure and diabetes now, but the road I am going down doesn't guarantee I won't have those diseases say, 10 years from now. The buck stops here before it is too late. As my wonderful mother says, "Enough is enough, and too much is nasty!" I am completely overjoyed at me fighting temptation. Sure, this is the beginning of my journey, but I am on the right path, and that is ALL that matters.
Ok, here is my menu for today:
MENU
Hehe, by the way, I had my pity potty and flushed. I wasn't exactly discouraged, just frustrated.
Be yourself, love yourself, don't be afraid to change for the better. Here is the.....
Thought of the Day
Today is today, tomorrow is tomorrow. Yesterday was in the past, so let it stay there!
Today I thought about beauty. I am the epitome of "BBW", inside and out. In fact, all people have beauty, most don't know how or don't want to use it. I have come to accept myself as a Big, Beautiful Woman because that is who I am. Although, on the inside I am thin. That thin, or at least healthy woman will be coming soon. While I believe everyone is who they are, and should be proud of it, there comes a time when our downfalls must be dealt with. I have too many downfalls, but the major one is my weight. As I get older, it is affecting my body in a way that unsettles me.
I am lucky to not have high blood pressure and diabetes now, but the road I am going down doesn't guarantee I won't have those diseases say, 10 years from now. The buck stops here before it is too late. As my wonderful mother says, "Enough is enough, and too much is nasty!" I am completely overjoyed at me fighting temptation. Sure, this is the beginning of my journey, but I am on the right path, and that is ALL that matters.
Ok, here is my menu for today:
MENU
Hehe, by the way, I had my pity potty and flushed. I wasn't exactly discouraged, just frustrated.
Be yourself, love yourself, don't be afraid to change for the better. Here is the.....
Thought of the Day
Today is today, tomorrow is tomorrow. Yesterday was in the past, so let it stay there!
Thursday, February 18, 2010
1 is a Lonely Number
I have been frustrated all day at the fact I am in this by myself. I have always been alone in everything that I do, but I thought this time would be different. I believe everyone needs encouragement, and I am not an exception. It seems only negative things get attention in my life, like noone wants me to succeed.
I made it to Dean's List in college, and I got a mere "ok" from my Dad. My first successful diet went unnoticed. These are instances in which I quit striving for my goal, I had nothing or nobody to fall back on, and it extinguished my inner fire.
This time, I choose to keep the fire burning at no expense. I am doing this either by myself or with support. When I reach my goal, I will glow even brighter for keeping the course I have laid out. Like my header says, one day at a time..... I am slowly but surely progressing into a healthy lifestyle.
As you can see from my ticker, I did choose to reveal my weight: 332 pounds. A healthy weight for me is: 130-160 pounds.
Here are my stats:
30 year old female
5'11"
large frame
Everything looks BIG right now, but I will reach my goal at a steady, healthy pace. I know and BELIEVE I can do it. Once I put my mind to something, IT GETS DONE. PERIOD.
Ok, here is today's menu:
MENU
It feels good knowing I can count on myself and trust myself to be there for me. Me, Myself and I.....that's all I've got in the end.....haha shameful Beyonce song reference. Gotta love it. Now here is the.....
Thought of the Day
YOU are the architect of your own destiny.
I made it to Dean's List in college, and I got a mere "ok" from my Dad. My first successful diet went unnoticed. These are instances in which I quit striving for my goal, I had nothing or nobody to fall back on, and it extinguished my inner fire.
This time, I choose to keep the fire burning at no expense. I am doing this either by myself or with support. When I reach my goal, I will glow even brighter for keeping the course I have laid out. Like my header says, one day at a time..... I am slowly but surely progressing into a healthy lifestyle.
As you can see from my ticker, I did choose to reveal my weight: 332 pounds. A healthy weight for me is: 130-160 pounds.
Here are my stats:
30 year old female
5'11"
large frame
Everything looks BIG right now, but I will reach my goal at a steady, healthy pace. I know and BELIEVE I can do it. Once I put my mind to something, IT GETS DONE. PERIOD.
Ok, here is today's menu:
MENU
It feels good knowing I can count on myself and trust myself to be there for me. Me, Myself and I.....that's all I've got in the end.....haha shameful Beyonce song reference. Gotta love it. Now here is the.....
Thought of the Day
YOU are the architect of your own destiny.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Bad Choices, Good Choices
Today started off with me craving food, food, and more food. I have been craving Chinese all day long! I have an immense love for Chinese food, buffets in particular. The thoughts of food consumed my mind, for I am a quantity eater. What makes matters worse is that I am stuck in the house because of the mass snow we have been having here. If there is one thing I have learned about Indiana, it is that the weather here changes its mind faster than the mind of a female. =D
It got better for me after we went out and got active. I then went to the store to get a couple more Healthy Choice dinners, but came out with $100 of food! lol What can I say? I am a female, I love to shop. There is NOTHING that retail therapy can't fix. Well, it can't fix the dent in your wallet, of course! lol While I was there, I floated pass the bakery (WHY DO THEY PUT THE PRODUCE NEXT TO THE BAKERY?! ARRRRGGGHH!) and took a gander at the cakes, pies, DONUTS!, and such. I looked at the labels and promptly put them down. I wanted to stomp my foot and cry like a 2-year-old, I wanted those delectable, sugary sweets! But..... I just went on. I am sooooo proud of myself for not giving in.
Which brings me to my final thoughts of today: I am retraining my bad eating habits that I have had my entire life! This does NOT happen overnight! Will and tenacity only gets you so far. It's the choices you make that seals the deal. I replaced my old bad choices with new good choices when it comes to my eating habits. Is it easy? haha - NO! But I did it, and I am glad I did rather than regretting my bad choices.
I did weigh myself today. I am very uneasy to publish the number. I also took pictures of my "before" body. I will definately post these things after I lose weight. I do not like the numbers, and I do not like the way I look. That is a big part of why I am losing weight, the other being for health reasons. The key is I am doing it for myself. That is the ONLY way it will work, and that should be the only reason anyways. While at the store, I saw people who were way more overweight than I am riding scooters. Most were probably only in their 40's! That is NOT how I want to live, and I thank God I still have the ability to function on my own. If I continue to make bad eating choices, that is the road I will be traveling on. That is not what God has planned for any of us. He wants us to live full, healthy lives, but it is up to us whether that happens or not.
Ok, here goes my menu for today:
MENU
Now that I have filled your eyes with today's meanderings, I leave you with the.....
Thought of the Day
"Success is the ability to go from one failure to another with no loss of
enthusiasm."
-Sir Winston Churchill
It got better for me after we went out and got active. I then went to the store to get a couple more Healthy Choice dinners, but came out with $100 of food! lol What can I say? I am a female, I love to shop. There is NOTHING that retail therapy can't fix. Well, it can't fix the dent in your wallet, of course! lol While I was there, I floated pass the bakery (WHY DO THEY PUT THE PRODUCE NEXT TO THE BAKERY?! ARRRRGGGHH!) and took a gander at the cakes, pies, DONUTS!, and such. I looked at the labels and promptly put them down. I wanted to stomp my foot and cry like a 2-year-old, I wanted those delectable, sugary sweets! But..... I just went on. I am sooooo proud of myself for not giving in.
Which brings me to my final thoughts of today: I am retraining my bad eating habits that I have had my entire life! This does NOT happen overnight! Will and tenacity only gets you so far. It's the choices you make that seals the deal. I replaced my old bad choices with new good choices when it comes to my eating habits. Is it easy? haha - NO! But I did it, and I am glad I did rather than regretting my bad choices.
I did weigh myself today. I am very uneasy to publish the number. I also took pictures of my "before" body. I will definately post these things after I lose weight. I do not like the numbers, and I do not like the way I look. That is a big part of why I am losing weight, the other being for health reasons. The key is I am doing it for myself. That is the ONLY way it will work, and that should be the only reason anyways. While at the store, I saw people who were way more overweight than I am riding scooters. Most were probably only in their 40's! That is NOT how I want to live, and I thank God I still have the ability to function on my own. If I continue to make bad eating choices, that is the road I will be traveling on. That is not what God has planned for any of us. He wants us to live full, healthy lives, but it is up to us whether that happens or not.
Ok, here goes my menu for today:
MENU
Now that I have filled your eyes with today's meanderings, I leave you with the.....
Thought of the Day
"Success is the ability to go from one failure to another with no loss of
enthusiasm."
-Sir Winston Churchill
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
My First Day
Life is all about choices. I have chosen to lose weight for the sake of my health, and to feel better about myself. I have chosen to rethink my eating habits that I have had my whole life.
As I say goodbye to overeating, comfort eating, and sugar and fat laden treats and sodas, (WHO LOVES ORANGE SODA?! I DOOOOOOOO!) I will document my goals, frustrations and menu for the day. I promise to be completely honest with myself, and hope to not have an anxiety attack while looking at what I eat on paper (and laptop screen).
I hope I can be an inspiration to not only myself (most importantly!) but to others as well. I will be doing this with humor, tenacious will, and reality. I do realize there will be setbacks. I have to remind myself this is normal, as noone is perfect, chuck it up, MOVE ON and try not to make the same mistake(s).
I realize I am without an essential part throughout this process at the moment, which is a scale. I am going to be getting one soon! I will find some way to weigh myself within the next day or two to accurately record my weight loss. I will be recording video, audio, (or both) for my blog as well.
So here goes my menu for today:
MENU
I am going to be drinking alot of Crystal Light to transition myself into plain water. I can't quit sweet drinks cold turkey! Well, that's all for now, and I will leave you with the.....
Thought of the Day
Go ahead. Have yourself a pity potty. Just don't forget to flush when you are done.
As I say goodbye to overeating, comfort eating, and sugar and fat laden treats and sodas, (WHO LOVES ORANGE SODA?! I DOOOOOOOO!) I will document my goals, frustrations and menu for the day. I promise to be completely honest with myself, and hope to not have an anxiety attack while looking at what I eat on paper (and laptop screen).
I hope I can be an inspiration to not only myself (most importantly!) but to others as well. I will be doing this with humor, tenacious will, and reality. I do realize there will be setbacks. I have to remind myself this is normal, as noone is perfect, chuck it up, MOVE ON and try not to make the same mistake(s).
I realize I am without an essential part throughout this process at the moment, which is a scale. I am going to be getting one soon! I will find some way to weigh myself within the next day or two to accurately record my weight loss. I will be recording video, audio, (or both) for my blog as well.
So here goes my menu for today:
MENU
I am going to be drinking alot of Crystal Light to transition myself into plain water. I can't quit sweet drinks cold turkey! Well, that's all for now, and I will leave you with the.....
Thought of the Day
Go ahead. Have yourself a pity potty. Just don't forget to flush when you are done.
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